Targeted Trilogy

I just wanted to pop in and bring a little bit of lightness to this whole situation that awaits us.  So many people, so many opinions and all I keep getting is bring on the joy!  BE the light!  But a lot of people just don't want to hear that.

I'm sitting in the parking lot of my local Target store.  I'm breathing in the fresh air and getting a break away from ANOTHER energy thwarting,  power sucking, circular conversation that ends up going South.

My solution... just get up and walk away, happy as I can be.  I redress myself in my own power as I put each piece of my clothing on for the day.  I repeat to myself like a broken record: "I do not need anyone to approve my feelings.  I do not need anyone's permission to have my own ideas about the state of what is in our world and I certainly don't need anyone's permission to be me."  

It's all those little things that add up.  It's the mind-fuckery of the "programming" and it is breaking down.  Some people don't like this.  I can't seem to get past this and I can't figure out how to get out of it.  So I needed a break.

And I wanted to play my little game with the gods of Sirius XM radio again and see what the " message" is for me today.  What are they thinking and feeling.  What do we need to know. I know, this stuff is weird.  But it's fun.  It brings me joy and it diverts my attention away from what I find so difficult and complicated in my life.

So the game is, What's Playing Today?  On the Pop Rocks satellite, what do I need to hear?

#1 as I start the car: 

Imagine Dragons.  I'm On Top of the World.  And I have just taken back my power and walked out my front door.  And I am happy.  And, OK, I am on top of the world.  I hope you are having those feelings too.  Joy is meant to be contagious.  I just really hope that mine can be somewhere, because it doesn't usually work that way at my home.

#2 as I am driving down Fleming Road.  

Puddle of Mudd.  She Hates Me.  Well this just makes me laugh.  The Universe is getting all bi-polar on me.  I don't fucking hate anyone.  I try to be so nice.  I'm a nice person.  I am kind.  I love.  I love you.  If I ripped up anyone's feelings like they didn't have any, it was only because I honestly thought "they didn't have any"... for me anyway, especially when that's what they said.

#3 as the clock is getting close to 12:12.

Deep Blue Something.  Breakfast at Tiffany's.  "I hate when things are over, when so much is left undone".   We've got nothing in common?  No common ground to start from?   No, we've got something.  At least it's something.  At least it's a start.

So that's the Targeted Trilogy that I can enlighten you with.  I hope it lights up your day.  It's is tiring to me, trying to be the sun in a world where so many people don't want to see it shine.  

I want to surround myself with people who appreciate me, as we all should.  Why is that such a difficult task?  Where do you find that?  I'm not even going to ask the next question.  I'm going to give you the answer.  "I KNOW it exists somewhere."

Are you asking yourself the same question?  Have you given up hope?  Have you ever allowed yourself to believe?  Can you assure yourself that it is out there somewhere?

Yes, there's the whole "where there's light there must be darkness", "balance", the "universe evening itself out" and all of that.  Maybe these energies that seem so opposite me have their place, if only to balance out the equation.  I don't know.

But there is also the Magnum Opus and I woke up this morning thinking about Hermes Trismegistus, also about the 7 of Cups, but that's a different post, if I manage to get to it.  I just know that there is more to this story.

I'll leave you with a podcast that I was listening to yesterday.  Maybe you can listen sometime if you have a chance.  It's LONG, but it's a good conversation, I think.  I'm excited to embark upon this new path of study more deeply.  Things are opening up within me to make this learning journey a lot of fun!

But I still have The Cult - Part 2 to get in the can, metaphorically, although not entirely correctly speaking, and I still have my shopping at Target to do, so I will leave it at this for now.  Thanks for being here.  Thanks seeing my light.  I think you appreciate it.  I hope you do.  I'm just going to keep doing it regardless.  I owe it to myself to do nothing less.  You owe yourself exactly the same.