Return To Innocence

Good morning beautiful Soul.  Out of the darkness you arrive, into the day...we arise.

Here.  Now.  We come...to meet ourselves.  We come... to unite our souls.  We come... back to our innocence.

NO shame.  NO guilt.  Programs disintegrating. Return to ourselves.  We are pure... purifying. We are healed...healing.  This is our Sacred Journey... the Return to Innocence.

A journey... and a process.  Processing.  Releasing.  Remembering.  Surrendering...to the light of the night.  Remembering our Life... force. Electric.

"Following my own way, don't give up and miss the chance to return to innocence."

I just finished up another meditation this morning.  Entitled, "Reclaiming Your Lost Light", it's all about the Soul retrieval.  It's another activation calling in the help of Mother Isis, very healing.  It's basically the same meditation with Isis that I posted yesterday, but Lily Nova is leading this session.  It was recorded last summer, and it was extra powerful for me today, perhaps because the energies of my friends were there too.

Throughout my life, I have given away so much of my sexual power and energy.  Much of this came in the form of trying to find love.  Sex was the tool I learned to use.  This tool certainly bought me some attention, but it rarely brought the love I was longing for.

For a period in my young adulthood, I felt as if using my sexual power really was just that...being powerful.  I thought I was claiming the freedom to do as I chose with my body.  I did believe I was being liberated.  I was defying the shackles of my childhood religion, and I felt free and smart and wise.

But what I didn't realize at the time, is how much of my soul's energy I was giving away for free.  I didn't understand the greater consequences of splintering my creative sacral sexual energy into 1000 pieces.

It made for a fractured, fractalized me.  As this happened, my identity suffered, my values were confused.  I still kept looking for love, for something, but there was always ever something missing.  That something, I believe, was me.

How can you be whole and healthy if you don't know who you are?  Programming comes in so many different shapes and sizes.  Granted, my sexual pursuits often came in the guise of trying to "find myself".   I'm not advocating for a puritanical approach to sexuality, in fact quite the opposite might be true.  But it must be understood, and it must be made clear, that it's impossible to do this in a healthy and spiritual way when you don't understand the mechanics of the soul.  You can't be a whole and healthy YOU when thousands of your soul seeds are spread across the universe.  

Time to call those powers back.  Time to return to innocence.  This Isis meditation has been powerful and helpful to me, but it doesn't end here today.  I realize that this is an ongoing process for me.  In reality, I don't know how long it will take.  In reality, I will surrender to the journey of this sacred sacral discovery.

What I do know is that only by loving myself and accepting myself and embracing the pure innocence that surrounds and has surrounded my every pure intention, only there will I remain free.  I keep practicing and processing and I keep unwinding the old programming.  That's a tough one.  

As part of my soul's mission, I am happy to do what I need to do.  In healing and hindsight, my life and it's unfolding make perfect sense to me.   Not that it couldn't have happened any other way, because I believe it could have.  But I believe the way it DID happen, in fact, was definitely, most probably, the most impactful, meaningful and pedagogical route possible.  Quite possibly, it was the highest and best timeline for all.

As always, I am grateful for ALL of it.  And I am grateful for you too.  I hope you find this content helpful.  I hope you will be able to join me on this journey back to our innocence.