Thursday, December 26, 2019

In the Heart of Winter I Have Memories of Summertime


♫♬♪♫Summertime-summertime-sum-sum-summertime, summertime-summertime-sum-sum-summertime-SUMMERTI-I-I-I-IME…Does anyone remember that ditty?  I found it buried in the recesses of my brain, a commercial from my childhood.  Lemonade? Fruit? No? Anyway...It's not your anticipated yuletide carol, but as promised, I will pay tribute to my summer, the summer of 2019.  Consider this our video Christmas card since I didn't get any paper cards in the mail this year. Where has the time gone? Christmas day has been here and passed. Where have the years gone? 2020 is just around the corner.

Friends and family, sweet memories, blessed and beautiful times... Great God, You dress the world of summertime and paint the sky with stars.  You write your story on our lives and guide the ways of all. Give us a wider sense of wonder, that we may unwrap the world like a gift, always thanking you for your goodness and living in love with our neighbor.

Father Creator of all, thank you for summer! Thank you for the warmth of the sun and increased daylight. Thank you for the beauty in all I see all around me and for the opportunity to be outside and feel the sun and enjoy your creation. Thank you for the longer days of light. Draw me closer to you this summer. Teach me how I can pray no matter where I am or what I am doing. Warm my soul with awareness of your presence and light my path with your word and counsel. As I enjoy your creation, create in me a pure heart and a hunger and thirst for you. Amen.

(From my book of prayers. I collected these prayers and have prayed them for so long.  I don't remember who the authors are, but I thank them and have been blessed by their words. May their words also be a blessing to you in these darkest days of winter. May they instill hope and anticipation of the warmth and light that will surely return. May they bring the comfort of Eternal Light that was born into this world, that which surrounds us this day and always.) Amen again.



Peace,
Ronda


Monday, December 16, 2019

A Technological Threesome

Here I am. I'm working on my next blog post, because I am being faithful. I'm thinking about summertime and the living is easy. Songs, memories, smiling and reveling, relaxing into what it is I need to say. What it is I need to do.

So I start. I'm writing and getting the ideas flowing. Good. Now some pictures.  Where are they? On my phone? But I thought I shared them? I set up the new sharing features and downloaded the app and it said sharing.  But it also said I needed to do some updating.  On a new computer, updating?  I was in love with my new computer...I am feeling betrayed.

Last night I opened the box.  It emergerd into my world, that wonderful, delicate piece of technology, staring at me. Endless possibilities.  A blank slate.  Beautiful!  I hand it to my husband.  Set it up, I say.  He hands it back to me.  No words.  I moan.  No words.  Noooo, that's your job, I say.  PLEASE set it up, I say.  Do it FOR me, I say.  No words.  I roll my eyes.  I sigh.  I growl.  I huff.  I act like a 5 year old...it's painful. I keep going.  I'm delighted. I'm devastated. I'm confused. I don't quit.  I persevere. He makes me. I resist. My brain twists. I press on. I ache. I feel hope. I need help. I search. I succeed. I set up my computer. -  I SET UP MY COMPUTER! (CAPLOCKS JOY!!)

Yay!!!  I feel SO accomplished!  I feel so new!  I feel so capable! I love my computer!

 And then, I get bold. I get brave. I stay up late. I use my computer. I explore new features.  I think, Yes I Can!  I can be a friend of Technology and I will allow Technology to be my friend.  A good friend.  A faithful friend.  Then BAM!

A feature does not work and I am brazen now, almost cocky.  Ok, I think.  No problem.  CORTANA!  How do I fix this? Step 1...OK, I do it.  Step...Oh no, now I stepped in it. Already? Again?..  PSYCH, the computer says.  You should not be doing this! I KNOW! Your printer is experiencing a problem! Traitor! Not again!  Your computer won't shut down! I hate you!

Is this regret I feel? My husband holds out his hands. He takes the computer from me. Let me see it, he says.  OK.

Moments pass.  He is gentle.  He is composed. Restart.

"Here you go...It works."

"Thank you!" I say. " I love YOU!"

Time

Time. It goes. Tic. Tock.
Tic. Tock. Gone. I have plenty.
Use it wisely. Time.

Fall down. Get up. Fall down. Get back up.
Fall down. Stay down. Get back up girl.
Fall down. Get back up. Fall down.
Get back up girl. Fall down.
Moan... Inhale. Exhale.
Inhale... Exhale...
Sigh. Stay down...
GET. BACK.
UP!

So here I am blogging again. I don't feel like I have permission to start again without an apology and an explanation. Why do I even see it as starting again? Why not just continuing? Moving forward? Life, a happy life, a successful life, is, I believe, about reframing. Sometimes restarting. Sometimes getting back and getting up. Sometimes moving forward. Sometimes, moving on.
Dramatic. So dramatic. And, so, I took the liberty of writing some poetry, to share, with you.

The first is a haiku, technically speaking 5 - 7 - 5 syllabic construction.  The second is a nonet.  9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 syllables in each line respectively.  Fun.  Poetry is fun! Or at least I can say that I had fun writing these poems to share with you. I hope you enjoy them as much as I enjoyed writing them , on my new laptop, I might add, with a touch screen, woohoo! and a bamboo pen for drawing, yippee!!  So grateful! Merry Christmas to me!  Merry Christmas to you!!

And tomorrow, perhaps I can fill you in on what went on this summer. Some pictures.

Now it's fall. More pictures. But almost Christmas, and winter, chilling...More to come!

Today. No promises. Tomorrow. Moving forward. Because...life is too short to be anything but happy! Thank you for being here. ❤️

Peace and Love,
Ronda