Toxic Positivity?

If you told me so, I'd deny it.  

I know that I will sometimes feel heavy and disappointed.  I AM ALLOWED TO HAVE BAD DAYS...

The former comes from an oracle card deck.  It's one of the 3 cards I pulled yesterday before my coaching call. The other two, to sum them up said: I AM LETTING GO & I AM THE FINAL SAY.

Great.  But today I feel like I'm in a pressure cooker, self imposed constriction I am sure, breaking my old mental mold HURTS sometimes.  And I hear my father's voice, how hard he always is on himself I remind myself that this is NOT the story I want to write.  But it's so damn hard sometimes to pick up a new pen.

Maybe I keep getting children's songs in my daily discovery because someone out there is trying to remind me to lighten up.  Stop pressuring myself so damn hard.  Just keep getting up and doing the work.  But this is rhetoric...I FEEL resistance coming up and I have to SIT in it.  FEEL it.  Choose the best thoughts I can and just keep loving myself and those along my path.

I'm really only writing so much because I am waiting for my computer to update ( it's at 27%) so let me share this with you.

My first song today: (28%)

I think I'm Poppy in an alternate Universe.

I think I know a Branch on a deep soul level in that same Universe.

It's a great movie, fun, poignant and inspiring.  It's one of my favorites actually.  I would recommend watching it if you haven't or watch it again if it's been a while.

This link is mainly just for reference.  It could very possibly be one of those that cuts out content every few minutes to avoid copyright claims or whatever. Find it and watch it if you can.

I'm all updated now and feeling a little less constricted, probably one of the reasons I keep coming back here to spill my guts and share my glory!

And because it's great and I can't resist here is one more for the road... quickly.

Still smiling 😊 until I'm not 🙃 until I am again 😂

I am GRATEFUL for it ALL!💜