February Is Fun Month!

Well it's February! I made it through January, a month of "doing less" to the best of my ability.  The things I did do felt mostly creative and enjoyable, and if anything started to feel too much like "work" I successfully reeled myself back into something restful.

Icy weekends and blizzards help make it easy to cuddle up with your puppy and a good book, or watch Groundhog Day again and again and again.  Tomorrow is officially Groundhog Day and I have already watched the movie 13 times I think. It's been great!

My new goals for February are simple.  1) Watch the movie every day.  2) Grow my YouTube channel to 50 people so I can start doing daily live stream meditations.  3) Keep my creative spark lit, whether that means making art, producing quirky videos, reading a good book or playing the piano terribly.

And I will keep posting on this blog, reposting special videos that peak my curiosity and fun stuff like that.  Today you can check out MY latest YouTube video  in the link below. It isn't funny, at least it isn't supposed to be.  It's real, a little raw and relevant to my healing journey.

If you haven't subscribed to my channel yet, I would really appreciate it if you did.  Every subscriber is important.  Every new view helps.  So, tell your friends too, if you think they might be interested.  It's going to be a lot of peace and kumbaya for everyone, that I can promise!

Yep.  That's my new video.  It's embarrassing.  It's authentic.  It's real.  It came on the heels of a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day.  I was awake in the middle of the night, my body racked with pain and my mind fighting mental distress.  I was in tears the day before and in tears in the middle of the night and I knew then and there that I had to step up and advocate for my own well being, because nobody else is going to do it for me.

My experience with self-help burnout and being sucked into deep debt because of predatory marketing divas (i.e. The Art of  Feminine Sales) had been keeping me awake at night.  I thought I had made peace with it all and mostly I have, but recently it had been giving me bad dreams, helping me understand what really happened to me.

The day before I made the video had been a hard day for me at work, longer than I expected, no food, not enough water, standing too long, crowded, noisy workspace.  Head down, staying quiet, trying to stay positive, happy, doing my best to get my work done. Then I started being critiqued (what I took as criticism) by my boss on how I made my flower arrangements too pretty and he couldn't understand how I was doing what I was doing and wondered how come I couldn't make them less uniform. 

I started to crumble.  By that point I was just confused, deflated and exhausted. ( I forgot to mention that I had been up since 4 am that morning) I left work, holding back tears, going straight to my counseling appointment and trying to understand why I am so damned sensitive and why I kept feeling like I needed to cry...ugh! Well, it's out now!

I feel better. I feel stronger.  I feel more rested.  I had a fun day making snow angels and playing with my dogs in the ten inches of snow we got during the snow bomb cyclone yesterday. The whole thing was so quiet, so beautiful, so divine.

I will leave you today with one extra-worldly video that gives me chills. That said, stay warm and stay tuned for more fun February stuff to come!❄️😇❄️

Peace!❄️🩵❄️